Long Time No Type

So, it's been quite some time since I've posted. Nothing too big to write about, and I've been so busy, that there's hardly a spare hour to type (because that's how long it takes me when I start writing, I keep going). At some points in time, I've thought "oh yeah, I'm totally going to blog about this" but it's taken me too long to sit down and do it, so I can't remember what those are... Ooops :o)

Hmmm... school still keeps me plenty busy. I'm loving it, but it's also hard work. Last week report cards were do. It made me feel super official, but it was also a pain in the rear. Our report cards are subjective report cards, which means that through observations and classroom interactions, this is what I feel your student earned, and we don't really have to supply hard evidence. So that was lame. Plus, I am super not a fan of the scaling system they used. A 4 (the highest mark) means that they went above and beyond expectations and that they don't need promptings or reminders to stay on task. Um, does that mean that I'm supposed to have low expectations for my kids or that I'm just not allowed to give good grades? (It ended up being that kids just had to get low grades for now.) Yeah, so report card time was oober stressful and frustrating. Oh, and you want to know the best part? I got mine done a week before they had to go home (because if I wanted them stored on the computer, they had to be done by that time.) I seal them in the envelopes on Thursday, when they need to go home on Friday, and then Friday at lunch time, Stacey comes into my classroom to inform me that there is a second part of the report card that we hadn't seen. So I have 30 minutes to fill out the behavior part for all my students, open the envelopes, fold the second paper back in and reseal the envelopes. They look super ghetto now, which I am not a fan of. I don't want to look shady for the parents, I'm a newbie, which means I have to prove myself, not look like I'm putting in minimal effort.

Oh, and I for sure do NOT put in minimal effort. I work so hard, and I am ALWAYS doing school stuff. That's one part that I'm no longer balancing so well. At the beginning of the year I was so proud of myself because I spent plenty of extra time at school, but I also had activities like every night of the week, I had other things to do beside school. Those extra plans have dropped off for some reason and now I'm left at the classroom a lot. Last weekend was the worst. Because I had spent so much time focusing on report cards, I hadn't really had time to do much lesson prep for the next week. On Friday I had gotten to school at 7am (that's my usual time), but I ended up staying there until 7pm. Then, after my full 12 hours at school, I came home, had dinner, and then did school stuff until 10:30, when I went to bed. Oh my gosh, it was horrible, and I'm not going to lie... I had a little bit of a break down that night because I got scared that I would have to spend every Friday night home alone doing school stuff because I was going to be single forever. That's not actually how I feel, and usually my weekend plans are better than that, but that weekend, that was how I felt. Plus, not only did I spend my ENTIRE Friday doing school stuff, but Saturday I got up, had breakfast, took a shower, and went to the school. I left because it was snowing, the heater wasn't on, so the building was freezing. I went home and worked on school stuff until 8:00pm. And don't you worry, I did school stuff on Sunday night too. Oh, that was NOT a happy weekend :o(

This weekend was MUCH better, although it was a completely opposite swing of the pendulum. I did absolutely NO school stuff. I got some pretty tear jerking news Friday before class (which was actually the PERFECT time to get it because I had to push it out of my mind since the kids were about ready to come in, and so I didn't have much of a chance to think about it until I had already had the time to calm down). But I shared the news with Katrina and she told me that I needed something to distract me, so she invited me to go ice skating with her ward. So Friday I stayed at school until 5, then I went home, changed, tried to go to the temple, but it was closed for some reason, so I went home and got ready for ice skating. It was such a blast. I fell once when we were ice skating... I tried to play it off, like I was sliding on my knees on purpose, but I apparently didn't fool anyone. Whatev', I didn't know those people anyway :o) And while we were playing broom hockey, I kept on getting complimented about how well I was playing, and then heard someone yell my name (first and last), and since I didn't know anyone but Katrina there, I was intrigued. I turned around and saw Shauny Tagg, chillin' in the bleachers. I was in a PE class with her and I haven't talked to her in forever. We ended up talking for the last half hour, and it was way nice to chat it up and catch up with her. It was an awesome Friday night.

Saturday I woke up (and freaked out thinking it was a school day), went to a service project (not fabulous, nor do I feel like I served much, but we're going with it was the thought and effort that counts), then hung out with Nick. I always like hanging out with Nick. He gives me so many great compliments, and always makes me laugh. And it's pretty entertaining when he brings up how much fun it would be to date me, but then reassures me that it'll never happen. I know, it sounds like I'm being sarcastic, but it really is funny. I'm not worried about Nick not dating me. I could see it going either way, but I'm not frazzled by his lack of feelings for me in that way. After hanging out with Nick, I had a pretty chill night. I got a little more of my book read, which is good because I need to finish this one so I can start on the other 5 that are piled up waiting for me to read (and don't worry, I've ordered another one that's on it's way, so the pile will just keep growing).

My Sunday had been pretty good. Went to church, stayed for choir, got home taught, had a friend over for dinner, and now I'm taking the time to blog. I really do have things I could be doing for school, but why ruin my no school this weekend running streak? It's not too long before it's time to head up to ward prayer anyway, and once that ends, there's really only enough time to get ready for bed and hit the hay, so I think I'll be able to keep up the record this week. Go me!!!!

Oh, and by the way, I'm so excited for Wednesday when I head to New Mexico!!!!!!


I don't know how to side track into this, so I'm just going to skip some lines and just jump into another topic. Apparently Monday has been chosen as my new driving day. Two Mondays ago I was way stressed about report cards, and I was doing fine at school, but 30 minutes after being home I got really angry, at nothing in particular, but I just needed to get out. My apartment is obviously not the best place for me to be, unfortunately, and so I decided to go to my thinking spot up in the canyons. I'm always a very cautious driver, and I'm pretty obedient of the traffic laws, and the speed limit... but this night, I needed to take my aggression out on the road. And, since I have a car that loves curves, it was perfect. Up the canyons, the speed limit is 50. I didn't go 50. A couple times I got up to 80, but that was on the straight parts, never the curves. It takes a good half hour through the canyons to get to my thoughtful spot, and I didn't touch my brakes for a good 20-25 minutes of that. And the only reason I hit my brakes was because there just so happened to be a dear laying in the road. Oh, I know that I am loved, because I didn't notice the dear, I only noticed the car ahead of me putting on their brakes and moving off to the side of the road. I'm pretty sure if it hadn't have been for that car, I would have run over the dear... and, in my car, the dear would have been fine, and my car would have been trashed. Yeah, needless to say, I drove slower on the way back.

Then, this last Monday, after FHE, I felt like I really needed to go to the temple. It was Monday, though, so the temple closes early, so I figured I could take my scriptures up and read my scriptures up by the temple. On the drive, I got the impression to drive to Salt Lake. No... it takes 45 minutes to get up there, I wouldn't know where to park, and I had already gotten a late start on a school night. I went to American Fork and parked at the Timpanogas Temple, but wasn't there very long when I really felt that I needed to go to the Salt Lake Temple. So last Monday I went for another long drive. I wonder where I'm going to go tomorrow :o)

Any other side notes/different topics? Um... I could write about boys, that'll be quick. The one I was interested in shows interest but doesn't act on it, so I'm in the process of getting over that. Well, it's weird to same I'm getting over him, because for a while now I've been okay with him not showing interest, but I still like hanging out with him. So that's where we are. I'll still talk to him and flirt with him, but I'm already positive it's going no where. Then there's this boy that I think is serious eye candy, but I've never seen him at church, only FHE and he came to tutoring once, but I don't know how to go up and talk to him to have the potential for him to be more than eye candy. Which is okay, because I definitely need to stop being the one to go after guys, I've just got to let one come after me. Oh, and then there's the one who got away, who's now got someone else. But, can I tell you how proud I am of myself? In all honesty, I am so happy for him. There is no resentment, no jealousy, nothing but goodwill and happy feelings. He deserved to find someone that he genuinely loves and he did, and I am so happy for him. It's crazy, and my friends probably don't believe me when I say it, but it is the absolute truth. I am so glad he's got what he's got.

Alright, it's time to pick Cheri up to go to ward prayer, so I've got to go, but I just needed to write something on here since it's been so long. I'm planning on having some great stories from the up and coming road trip, so hopefully it won't be too long before I write again.